164 lbs.

down 33 lbs. from start

24 lbs. to my goal

OK, I am getting back into the swing of things! It's terrible how just taking a week off at the gym messes up your eating and your motivation all together. But Phil and I trained with Jeff last night. It felt great! I know I'm really going to be feeling it tomorrow! I'm already feeling it in my glutes a little this morning. I am seriously so happy that Phil and I signed up for this and are doing it together. It is really what we needed.

So I have concluded that I am not going to with this DietBet. I have 4 days to lose 4.4 lbs. I wish I didn't screw myself when I first started this bet by using my weigh out picture. I could have won if the goal was like 162 or so which is what it was supposed to be as opposed to 159 lbs. I also wish I could sign up for another DietBet right now. However, if I did, it would end while we were in the Dominican so I couldn't do my weigh out. So I am making a goal for myself. Maybe me and Phil can bet against each other. I want to be in the 150s and he wants to be in the 220s by the Dominican. So in the next 25 days, I need to lose at least 5-6 pounds! It won't be easy, but it's a totally do-able goal! I'm going to push myself. I don't want to fall off the bandwagon.

Let me tell you what happened last year... I lost almost 20 pounds from March to May-ish. We went on the float trip with our friends like we always do. I quit MyFitnessPal and went back to my old ways. I slowly gained all the weight back. We went to the Dominican in August. I wore a maxi dress on the flight there. We got off the airplane where they great you with shots and whatnot and a guy working at the airport asked me if I was pregnant!! That's one of the worst things that can happen to a girl. I was so mad and sad. And a few weeks after that, my grandma told me my belly looked like I was pregnant(grandmas have no filter, or at least mine doesn't). You'd think that would inspire you to do better. Well it doesn't. It just made me angry. So I ate my feelings. And gained more weight. It wasn't until I went to the doctor in November. I weighed 197 lbs and the doctor told me that I was prehypertensive. She then proceeded to tell me my weight in previous years and all about my gradual weight gain. I was tired of going to the doctor and them telling me how unhealthy and fat I was. That's probably one of the most exciting things to me now. I can't wait to go to the doctor, step on that scale and say "BOO YA!" lol.

I'm not quite sure how I got off on this tangent. I suppose it was, because I'm scared that I'm getting content. Last year, I made it to about 174 lbs, was happy with that accomplishment and quit. I'm scared that that is exactly what is happening now. Like "Hey Melissa, you are doing better than you ever have before. You are awesome. This is good enough." NO. I'm not done. I'm still not where I want to be.

Let me also tell you another thought I have. One reason that I think I start getting lazy is because all these people are like "You look so good! Don't want to lose anymore, you'll be too skinny". One, I know they are wrong. I won't be too skinny. I'm not skinny yet. I'm just not super fat. But two, I think people, not that they are trying to be mean, but don't want you to succeed. They don't want you to be so successful that it'll make them look bad. So it's like "Oh good job losing a little weight but don't lose anymore please. Then, you're going to make me look really bad!" I think I am probably guilty of this as well. It's just interesting. lol.

I can't wait to get off work today and go work out! I want to get rid of all my stress and enjoy this wonderful Memorial Weekend by doing fun things, but also by getting back into routine a little bit! I have plans to go to the zoo on Saturday. I haven't been in forever! Then, Phil and I are probably going to go down to the lake on Sunday until Monday. Phil's dad and stepmom will be down there so we'll do some fishing and hanging out. We haven't seen them much recently so it'll be good to catch up.

OK, back to work!
See ya!
Melissa