25 lbs. to my goal
So this week is weird. It's our first week with a personal trainer which is awesome. But my weight is not moving. And I don't feel skinny this week. I feel like I don't look any different than I did at 197 lbs. Also, we have our yearly friend float trip next weekend. I just put on my swim suit.. and I'm not happy. I'm going to be in a tankini again this year. It wouldn't be as bad if I was standing up the whole time. But sitting down, I am still very unhappy with how my body looks. And so many pictures are taken on float trips while you're sitting on the raft. I'm just not having it. I thought that I would look so much better at this weight and I just don't. I thought I'd feel so much better this summer. I wish our trip to the Dominican Republic wasn't next month. We went in August last year. Even though I'm excited for the trip, now I want more time to work on my body. I want to be totally comfortable in a swim suit! And that will not happen in the next month. Blah. Maybe I'm just having a bad week. But I'm feeling uninspired. I have eaten well all week and worked out every day and the scale has not budged. I need the scale to keep moving or else I get unmotivated. And then you get my trainer and lots of other people that say "Don't look at the scale. Look at yourself in the mirror." That isn't helping. I'm looking chunky this week. This belly needs to go and it needs to go now! I'm crabby. Is this work day over yet so I can go workout with Jeff?
See ya!
Melissa
I'll be in a tankini with ya! :) And don't get discouraged...we are so close to our goal weights, but I think we just have a lot of toning to do! I remember about 15 pounds ago, I felt like I looked exactly the same as I did in the 190s! But you don't....you are looking great, and your hard work will pay off for sure!!!!!!!
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