167 lbs.

down 30 lbs. from start  

27 lbs. to my goal 

 

I'm feeling confident that I can win the DietBet this month. I'm feeling good. It's shark week.. so I'm crossing my fingers that a pound is maybe just bloat. lol.

 

I'm also starting to wake up in the morning and feel happier about how I look. I actually feel skinny sometimes. Often in the morning I'll walk around in a bra or something and Phil will say "you look really skinny right now". :) But then dinner comes around and I'm not that small anymore. lol. But I'm just starting to feel better. I'm actually starting to feel like I am getting smaller. And that's a good thing. I'm also getting to a weight where I'm not ashamed to tell others how much the scale says. Before, I was so close to 200 lbs.. I t was embarrassing. Now, I'll tell you. I'm pretty average. I had to work hard to get here. I think I'm at a good place AND I'm not done.

 

I actually weigh less than one of my best friends now. That's not really the point though. This isn't a competition and I could care less how much she actually weighs. But that is a big accomplishment for me. She is actually very athletic and has a good body. Mine is not nearly as in shape as hers but I know that if I weigh less than her, I'm at least getting there. And I'm about 7 pounds away from weighing the same as another friend. Maybe it's silly that I'm thinking about my weight in this way. And I mean nothing mean or bad by it. To me, I was just always the "tall" friend. But really, I was the "bigger" friend in all aspects. I have had a lot of tiny friends(I'm talking 5'0, 92 lbs!) that made me feel ginormous. Half the time it made me insecure to be the big friend, but it also gave me an excuse to weigh more because I was "taller". No, I'm not letting myself think that way anymore. Especially because I finally have friends that are similar height. lol. 

 

I think I have rambled enough now. This is seriously turning into a diary. And the most boring diary at that. lol.

 

See ya!

Melissa